I remember the cute little white First Communion dress my grandmother made me. I was so proud to wear it that day and so proud to see the looks on my parent’s faces as I walked down that aisle to receive the sacrament for the first time. I grew up, had a child and continued to raise her in the religion I was raised in; to receive the sacraments I received and to raise her with some moral guidance and continued to believe in the Catholic Church. Then George Bush happened, 9-11 happened; war happened and somewhere along the way I lost my belief in the Church. Then the pedophilia scandal rocked the Church and my jaded view of this institution just got darker.
First George Bush decided it was “us against them”, then it was “God Bless America”, then it was “this is a Holy war” and “this is God’s war”. All I heard about was how this war against foreigner, Muslims, Iraqis – was right and just. The Jesus I was raised to believe in didn’t want war. He said turn the other cheek. How could these people who called themselves Christian decide that Jesus actually wanted this war? Was this whole religion idea just a really bad idea?
Why is it that the most un-religious people I know are the ones who actually live the most honest lives I know? They don’t believe in war. They don’t judge those that aren’t Christian. They believe in the Separation of Church and State.
And what about the priests? Those men who stole the innocence of children and then were protected by the very people who said it was wrong to hurt children! From the pope on down to the local parish priest everyone was involved in protecting those men. Who was protecting those children?
I am disgusted, hurt, ashamed and completely and utterly turned off by organized religion in any way, shape or form. No where do I see people more hypocritical, more self righteous, more dishonest then those who claim to be morally superior because they are Christian.
From the Crusades to the Inquisition; to the Holocaust and the pedophilias and the war lovers who claim their Christian God has directed them to kill others in the name of Jesus…the path of religion is bloody. Its history drowns in pain and suffering; of massacres and torture. What drives people to support religion? What is the motivation in belonging to a group of people who choose a path of pain, hypocrisy, war and anguish? It is time for us to think for ourselves and not be manipulated by a book written 1600 years ago that has been manipulated throughout the centuries as a way to justify the means.